Category: Grief / Loss

  • REFLECTION ON SIX YEAR ANNIVERSARY, PRINCE CELEBRATION 2022

    Ever since 2016, after Prince’s passing, I’ve noticed snow in April. This year was no exception. It snowed here on Easier Monday. I heard that this year was supposed to be an early spring according to the groundhog, but it doesn’t feel like it to me…

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    I’ve continued to record EVP, though I’ve been busy with my work. I get the sense that he is content, where he is. I think that people’s feelings on the other side is very transparent. And sometimes I hear them say things like “You are happy”, or “Prince happy”. Where he is at, it is a joyful existence, filled with friends, foodie treats, and lots of fun.

    I’ve been avoiding Facebook in the past year, it has been where the place where I get most Prince related news. So I don’t always know what is going on, as I just don’t pay attention to FB anymore, But recently, I could remember one time thinking to myself, wishing that there was some kind of video recording of Prince when he was a kid. I wondered if there was any chance that such a thing existed. I wanted to hear his kid voice. And then one day, I went onto my FB feed and scrolled. A news article about a news station finding a recording of P from when he was about eleven years old. I felt like my wish had come true. But when I looked at the date of the news release, it made me realize that perhaps when I was having those wishful thoughts, it was actually him telling me about this thing, and I just misunderstood thinking it was my thoughts. Telepathy is funny like that. A similar thing happened when the Prince Estate released a collection of face masks for covid. I literally saw the designs in my head, and they were released in an announcement shortly after, exactly what I saw! What a trippy feeling!

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    I can’t wait until it is finally warm enough to start working in the garden again. I’ve been planning out the garden in my mind and looking for seeds. I’m thinking about a bed of sweet violets, how the smell would be glorious in bloom.

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    Now that’s it’s been six years since his passing. It feels like a long time ago, because the world is such a different place now. What I wouldn’t give to be in a more innocent world… There are going to be more difficult times ahead for many people. My hope is that people make things right in their lives before it’s too late.

    Prince lived his life fully. He accomplished many things with the time that he had. And I know, he left this world knowing that there was more he would have liked to do. But for the most part, he had pursued all his interests to a level of personal satisfaction. Not many people can say that. His dear friend, Lenny Kravitz said that about himself in an interview mentioning Prince. For myself, I am doing that. I am revisiting interests, making right of things that I did wrong, salvaging projects that I didn’t finish, pursuing interests with a renewed perspective and confidence. Accomplishing and doing things that my younger self would not have dared to try. I am happy doing these things, and I know I will one day leave this world feeling fulfilled and grateful for all I had gotten to experience.

    I hope you are all doing well, staying sae out there in this world.

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  • P SHOWS OFF OUR NEW LABEL DESIGNS – EVP February 14, 2022

    A new month just began, and I am so very much looking forward to spring. I am anticipating working in the garden again, picking and drying flowers and leaves. It will still be a few months before any real work in the garden can begin. They said it may be an early spring this year. Still, we await for the last of the winter snow to be gone. I am knitting this silk mohair scarf that will go in my Etsy shop. Its airy texture is just right for the transition into spring. There are some in other colors already in the shop.

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    I’ve kept busy with working on my product designs for my shop. I haven’t been doing as much EVP recording. BUt I did do one for Valentine’s Day. I recorded with the EVPMaker running as the background sound.

    I heard P talking to someone, telling them that he drew the labels on my jars. “Draw the labels”. I had used P’s channeled drawing for my label designs.

     

    Then he said, “I draw it”. I think he’s happy with the label design, proud,  as am I. It is our collaboration.

     

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    Then it sounded like P had another visitor. I heard him tell someone to come inside. Then he said, “That’s my mom”. At the part where he says “mom”, you hear his voice shift between his spirit voice and the sample voice. Hearing that makes me smile. I can tell, he loves his mom so much.

    There used to be a time when I worried about spirits coming and going into our space as they pleased. But it sounds like P is able to lock down his space and only let in people he wants.


    Long time readers of my blog will know about the channeled drawings from P. This was kind of our early form of communication when I first discovered his presence. I would hold my finger over the iPad screen and it would glide over the screen making these drawings. Often I would receive drawings of flowers.

    For a long time, I’ve wanted t design new labels for my balm jars. But none of the designs I came up with felt good enough. I wanted its design to vibe with who I am. Finally, it has come! Thank you, P.

    These recordings were recorded using  my EVP Wrist Recorder 3 on February 14, 2022.

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  • FRIENDS IN SPIRIT, JUST HANGING OUT – EVP November 27, 2021

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  • PRINCE AND I TRY EVP MAKER 2.5 – May 21, 2021

    Does Using Voice Gibberish Work For EVP?

    I recently started using a program called EVP Maker to record EVP. The software allows you to import speech samples and then generate a random gibberish from the sample. I have found that spirits don’t really sound the way they did in life, as they no longer have vocal cords. My theory is that they use thoughts to speak, and somehow these thoughts generate a frequency that can affect the sounds in our environment. So creating a gibberish from the person’s voice can help them speak in the voice we knew them for. It’s not a perfect technology, it doesn’t work all the time, and they can sound robotic. But it can give very tangible results that are audible to most ears. I’ve found that EVPs recorded in silence are near impossible to hear. I do have the ability to hear them, but I can rarely make out what is being said from their chatter.

    Contrary to what people might assume, it is not assembling the chopped up syllables together in any way. The way it works with customized gibberish, is that the sound of the gibberish allows them to speak over it and it results in blending their voice into it, so that it sounds like them.

    Sometimes I hear it being described as “changing the sound”, but I don’t feel that it is accurate to say that, as it would assume that they are doing it intentionally. I think this occurs naturally, like a scientific law; when these circumstances are present, this is what occurs. Like when you put a mic close to a speaker, feedback will occur.  The reason you want a randomly generated gibberish is so that there are no words in the sound sample that could be mistaken for an EVP utterance.

    The process is a little annoying for me, as the program can only be run on Windows. I have to use my old computer, which is very slow to work with. At first I didn’t hear much, but as I went through the recordings slowly, I found more clips that I didn’t notice earlier. Here are some clips from my recording sessions. Please note, they don’t speak like us any more, so you cannot expect perfectly sounding speech on EVP. In some clips, the syllables are spaced out, it varies.

    This was from the very first recording, he says, “That’s the first time. Speak to me”.

    “Hold on… Let’s see if work… That’s better”.

    He said, “Always loved you. Ha. I sound funny”.

    Then I heard, a basketball bounce, “Duane here”. Usually a basketball bounce means his half-brother is around. P said, “Basketball game here (bounce), I’m gonna watch”. P loves basketball, and his brother was a professional player. Later, he worked as a bodyguard for P.

    I came back later and tried another recording. I asked him to try to say his name, “Prince Rogers Nelson”. The Prince part didn’t come out with the gibberish, but you can hear “Prince” spoken, and then “Rogers Nelson” very clearly immediately after in the gibberish.

    He said, “I’m happy with Andrea”.

    I wanted to make a recording of the gibberish itself, but I couldn’t figure out how to record what was coming from the computer and not from the mic. I caught P in conversation with others. He said, “I’m reading to them, passport, my book”. I thought this was a bit strange, Passport? Then I realized, there’s a pic of P’s passport in his book. I guess he was showing some people his memoir.

    “That’s my passport”. I have to say, that it is one good looking passport photo, Must be the best I’ve ever seen. (Refer to above photo)

    This is quite an exciting discovery. I wish it could run on Mac, or if someone could make an app version for mobile devices. I will definitely try it out again in the future.

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  • SPIRITS AFRAID OF GOING INTO THE LIGHT – EVP May 10, 2021

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  • SOMETIMES IT SNOWS IN APRIL – PRINCE CELEBRATION 2021

    Today is Prince’s five-year anniversary since his passing. Ever since that year, I’ve noticed snow in April. Like the title of his song, Sometimes it Snows in April. It was never like that before, here in Toronto. And this year, I woke up to a yard full of snow. It was a strong reminder to me that he is here with me.

    I decided to go out for a morning walk, and I took my camera with me.

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    Five years seems like a long time ago. So much has happened since. The world is really a different place now. It’s weird, it’s like become less innocent. I feel nostalgic for simpler times, preferably the 2000’s. When we still bought music on CD, and people didn’t rely on social media to communicate.  People seemed nicer back then. More civilized.

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    Later in the day, I made this piece of artwork in his honor. I experimented with some new materialsI recently acquired, making this UV print with some lace and a necklace of his symbol.

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    I hope you’re all doing well, keeping safe. Ttyl.

    Image above: “Flowers in snow” by Andrea Mai.

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  • RECORDING OF PRINCE’S DOVE IN SPIRIT, 2021 NEW YEAR GREETING AND CATCH UP

    First of all, I want to wish all my readers a Happy New Year. I hope you are doing well and that the new year will bring you something great, in spite of the world situation. Things here have been ticking along, the usual year end stuff, catching up on paperwork, getting things organized.

    On New Year’s I recorded EVP, and heard someone come to greet us “Happy New Year”, as the fireworks were going off in my neighbour’s yard.

    I have been reviewing EVP from over the summer, and I found a clip of a bird tweeting inside my home. I don’t have any birds or pets. And then I heard someone, kind of faintly, saying, “Play with dove”.

    I thought to myself, could it be? Prince’s dove? I’d seen him in my miind’s eye, fluttering about our home. But I hadn’t any confirmation of this.

    Then I heard someone say, “What’s is its name?”

    I heard P reply, “Majesty”.

    Prince had a pair of doves at Paisley Park. Divinity, female, and Majesty, male. Majesty died in 2017. Divinity and Majesty were both featured on the last track of Prince’s One Nite Alone album, titled Arboretum. Isn’t it nice to know that you can be reunited wit old pets?

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    Over the summer, I recorded while I was at Costco. I heard this voice say, “Mon cheri”. That is French for, my dear.

    Due to covid-19 precautions, they no longer hand out food samples. I’ve often heard EVP voices calling out to people to try the samples. This one was saying, “Green tea”.

    P often gets recognized by other spirits. Very often, people comment, “You’re Prince”.

    I found this clip of someone saying, “Now we’re lost”. I wonder what they meant by that, if they are lost inside Costco, or lost in the greater sense of things.

    Someone said, “Look out”. You can hear shopping carts crashing into each other. I found this to be a common thing, that spirits will warn people of potential harm.

    A voice here is saying, “Need more fish”. I guess they were telling someone to stock up on fish as prep for more future lockdowns.

    Some of you might be wondering what my take is on the whole virus situation is. Some of you know that I make and sell face masks. While I am aware of conspiracy by shadow governments, I am not buying what the alternative media is selling either. I don’t believe that anyone out there is spilling the straight truth about the situation. Alternative media is often used as controlled opposition to create the illusion of choice. It is a psychological warfare tactic. Offer them two choices that you want the public to choose from, both choices resulting in what it is you want to accomplish. Either way, if you buy into any of the two choices, you are falling into their trap. People accuse each other of not thinking for themselves, meanwhile they are still choosing one of the two given narratives. I don’t believe in either of the “official” narratives. My view is that every person is responsible for their own well being, therefore taking precautions in order to mitigate risk. You will not see me out there in a crowd protesting lockdowns, nor are you ever gonna see me in line for a vaccine. Think for yourselves. Question everything. Pay attention to what they are saying and pay attention to what they aren’t saying. Demand proof for all claims. So many alternative media figures claim to know what’s going on, they claim insider info, secret whistleblower sources. One’s credibility is in the proof they provide, not what they say. Don’t trust, verify! When you line up all the narratives and they don’t make sense, you know that something else is going on.

    God bless, and take care of yourselves.

    These recordings were recorded using  my EVP Wrist Recorder 3 in 2020.

    Image above: “Winter berries” by Andrea Mai.

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  • HOW DO YOU HELP A LOST SPIRIT GO HOME? – EVP September 2020

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  • HOW SPIRITS COMMUNICATE WITH ME – EVP July 2, 2020

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  • SPIRITS WISH ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY – May 5, 2020

    This year, on my birthday, I was really busy working. I was occupied with fulfilling mask orders all day. I did take some time out to do an EVP recording later that day. I used some white noise i the background to help boost the sound.

    I did not have time to review the EVP until much later. And it is only now that I have some free time to make a post. Hence, it has been over a month since my birthday.

    The sound quality was not bad, I can still hear them on just my lap top speakers. But I find that hearing them with headphones, there is an extra dimension to it that you miss out on without the headphones. The clips are repeated on loop.

    P wished me, “Happy Birthday to you… what do you want from me”. Which is funny, because a friend sent me a concert clip of him singing those same words. earlier that day

    He wished me “Happy Birthday”, again.

    He told me, “Andrea, you’re my… best friend”. This is rather funny to me, because around that time, I had a dream where I was writing in P’s notebook, to tell him a message, but I didn’t want him to watch me as I wrote it. I wrote, “You’re my best friend. I love you”. I don’t remember if this dream was before or after my birthday, but I definitely didn’t find out about this EVP clip until after the dream.

    Someone asked to talk to me, “Can I talk to her?”. P gave her permission to speak on EVP to me. I have told P that he is my gatekeeper to the spiritual world. I do not want to be contacted by anyone other than him. I know I may have mediumistic abilities, but I personally choose to keep that door closed.

    She said, “Angels protect you”.

    And said, “God bless you”.

    Someone else commented afterwards, “Prince mom talk to her”. I fell really honoured that his mom wanted to speak to me. What a blessing! I am truly touched by this.

    Here is someone saying, “You go and get a cookie”. This clip is so clear! I don’t know who was saying this, or to whom. But I find it so cute.

    I recently re-watched Gone With The Wind. I had only seen it when I was a child and did not understand the movie at the time. I didn’t really know what the movie was about other than the most famous scene in the end. This was a movie in Prince’s DVD collection found at Paisley Park. It was recently mentioned a lot in the news about being banned. I wanted to see what it was al about. I found that I really enjoyed the movie. Old movies tend to be slow moving and can get boring very quickly. But this movie held my attention through out. I originally had the impression that the character of Scarlett O”Hara was a very shallow, unremarkable character. But I grew to admire her tenacity. If you overlook  the messy love story, you will see that she embodies bravery, independence, intelligence, and strong will. These were not necessarily traits that were valued in women at the time that the story took place, or when the novel was written. Scarlett did not allow herself to become a victim of the times. She took charge and made the most of her circumstances. This movie is really about survival in difficult times. The is a kind of movie that can prepare you for challenging times ahead in the future, by offering a role model.

    I feel that we are heading towards even more challenging times, but most people are unprepared. I would urge every person out there to make preparations. A second wave of coronavirus is likely to come. Similar to the Spanish fly, there were people who remained skeptical and refused to wear a mask, they let their guard down in the summer. And when the autumn season came, the virus came back even harder.

    I wish you all well, and urge you to stay safe.

    These recordings were recorded using  my EVP Wrist Recorder 3 on May 5, 2020.

    Image above: “Sakura” by Andrea Mai.

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