Artist Diary

A little while ago, I was talking to a friend about my experiences in 2013 in regards to an out-of-body visit from Prince. It was during the night when I was in bed and suddenly felt a masculine energetic presence. It was unlike anything I had ever experienced, but I wasn’t scared because I felt the love. He floated above me and then into me. My friend had suggested to me that I look into that was happening to Prince during 2013. The only thing I knew was that he did not release an album that year.

Today, I found out that he played at the Montreux Jazz Festival that year, and he played a song called Breakdown. This would have been a brand new song at the time, as it was not released on an album, until 2014 on Art Official Age. The first time I ever heard this song, I cried. I felt his sorrows, I felt his regrets. And I felt his soul growth. I watched the video of this performance and he told me that he felt my pain and everything I had gone through at the time.

In early 2013, I had an emotional breakdown. There was a relationship break up with no explanation, just a text message saying his final goodbye. In addition to that, I had a realization that nothing in my life seemed to be going right. I had always tried my very best to make things happen for myself. I was unhappy in my career direction and I didn’t know what I was going to do. I spent a week in bed crying. But out of all this, I learned to be free, because I learned to surrender to God.

That summer, I experienced spiritual breakthroughs and developed a deep understanding for myself. I remember moments where I kept seeing white feathers blowing in the wind. One time I was in the car with my mother with the windows rolled down, and a single white feather gently floated through my window and out hers as we were having an deep conversation. That was the summer I picked up a Numerology book and learned to read people.

Hearing Prince perform this song made me realize that this song is really our  twin souls merging.  In this song he talks about his regrets and the lessons he’s learned as a result in his soul growth. This soul growth comes from breaking down the ego and realizing the spiritual. As the spiritual part of us emerges, awareness of our soul connection grows.

There were some lines in here that had me guessing as to what he meant by them, so I asked him, and he answered. Here is the video of the performance, the lyrics and my interpretation with guidance from Prince in spirit. Note that there is slight variation in the lyrics towards the end of the song.

The “door” that he’s referring to is dematerialization, the breaking down of the physical realm to get to the spiritual. The breaking down of the ego. In these lines he is speaking to his twin soul, his divine counterpart who gets him through his spiritual progression. The more his spirituality grows, the closer his connection to her becomes.

I found that this entire album was showing a lot of Prince’s spiritual growth. There’s a very interesting undying concept in the album itself. This album is really talking about his mission for incarnating on Earth and then his leaving.

Image above: “Self-portait with Prince” by Andrea Mai.

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After Prince’s passing, I could not help but find out who this mysterious man was. I had never paid much attention to him before. I only have sparse memories of hearing his music and brief mentions of seeing him in the media. I watched all the interviews of Prince that I could find on YouTube. And I became more and more fascinated by his way of thinking and what he had to say. I wasn’t paying attention to any of his music at this point. Eventually I came across a video of his performance on Ellen. He played Crimson and Clover. It was the first time I ever heard it. I was bewildered by him. He captured me. I was in love. Not a crush, but deeply in love beyond words. It felt visceral. And not to mention the outfit he wore. The glasses were a huge turn-on. I used to wear dark frame glasses similar to those. And then I realized I was in trouble. I thought, “I am in love with someone who just died.This is crazy. I cannot go on like this”. So I tried to contain my feelings. But he kept drawing me in and I seriously thought I was losing it. That is when I went to consult a psychic medium to find out what was going on with me. And the rest of the story you can read in my post titled, How I Met Prince In Spirit.

Last night I was in the car with my mother going to the grocery store and I fell into REM state on the way there. I saw a vision of myself dressed in a red silk satin evening gown. When I awoke, Prince said to me, “I like you in red”. I find this funny, as red in nor my go-to colour of choice. In the past, Prince had shown me in several visions of myself wearing red, and he’d be pointing me to this Crimson and Clover song. So when I got home, I went to check out the music video for it.

I had briefly come across this video in my research but I didn’t really pay attention to it. I’ve recently come to realize that Prince’s music videos are genuinely extension of his songs, a visual representation of its meaning. The videos are additional clues to decoding his music. You see in this video a female silhouette figure depicted in red and Prince’s image would be overlaid in the figure, as though they were bleeding into each  other. I’ve always had the feeling from this song that he was not singing about someone he met in real life, but rather someone in the etheric realm; and this video would confirm it to me why I felt such a connection when I first saw the video of him playing this song on Ellen. The visual clues show that this is a cosmic love affair between twin souls, two beings that are of one soul pouring into each other.

Image above: “Self-portait with Prince” by Andrea Mai.

©2016. Andrea Mai. All rights reserved.